So I am not feeling well WHAT SO EVER.
It doesn't help that I am psychotic either...
I really need to stop thinking and over analyzing EVERYTHING.
UGHHHHHH - I make things so hard... and then ruin everything.
I have the best thing that has ever happened to me... and here I go ruining it like always.
And from over thinking everything I then get mad at myself, which makes nothing better.
I wish I just believed people... aka - believe when someone says they love me... and also realize that everyone has a passed and that I am not the only girl that they have been with. But blah - I hate this.
there are a million things that I could write here... but I want to keep it short and sweet.
I love Greg... no words can explain it anymore.
I can finally say that I am finally fully and whole heartedly in love and I wouldnt exchange this feeling for the world.
So yea... these passed 3 weeks have been so amazing.
My life has just been so amazing.
Minus the whole sickness thing.
But yea... life is being pretty fucking spectacular.
My friends... awesome as always.
Saw everyone out in pequa last night. Andrews back for a few days!!! sooooo much fun.
Then we have Greg who has just been so great for me and to me <3
I don't see how I can even deserve him, but I love it.
LOVE LOVE LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEE it ♥
wow... what an interesting last 2 weeks of my life...
call me pimpette, but I have a feeling there will be no need after a while.
I have the biggest weight on my shoulders right now... i don't know what to do. At least Kaytee is more understanding than others, bc hearing all my friends say shit is kind of making me freak out. And sorry I am being so secretive of this, but I don't want the wrong people to get a hold of this information.
And as for my other situation... i'm glad this other guy came into my life so I was able to come to the realization that I deserve better. Oh man he treats me so well, but so does the other one. But the one I spoke of before, well - he actually seems sincere. And I am confusing you all, but whatever...
previous journal... I was in a mood - disregard it.
so sick, id prefer to be dead right now... not even joking
In my heart, always and forever ♥
So I havent posted in some time...
I guess things just havent been interesting.
I have been drunk and high a lot, that's for sure, so maybe I just can't remember anything, lol, jk.
Things have been rough though. Gramma is back home and I have to help take care of her... and no one could begin to imagine how hard it is unless they had to do it themselves. My social life has been put off a little, but what can I do about that?
I've been a bit depressed for the last 2 months, for obvious reasons, but hopefully this year will be different, and I can make myself feel better and become happier within the next few weeks. Although I know what I should do bc I am just hurting myself, but I can't seem to bc I don't want to lose everything. If you don't know what I'm talking about, its for the best.
well, even writing this entry is boring me, so if anything exciting comes up, maybeeee ill post it, but its doubtful... i guess i really ahvent been in a livejournal mood.
so tonight was awesome.
That was the greatest game I have EVER been to. So close and compteitive, I loved it. And I loved watching it with Chris... we def had a good time. Especially when he was fighting back and forth w the dudes behind us. It was just a really really good night ;)